Dying To Self World…

July 10,2012 at 12:00 Pm at midnight…. Taken from my personal journal… I’m asking myself what if I’m at the end of my physical life, ( myself ) and I may have been for a while, if so I’m just now seeing it for the first time and it’s freaking me out… I have to let go, and just die to self and to this self world, when I do my foot steps become order by the Lord’s word, and I started walking in His world through the holy scriptures I had to learn to live in the spirit world it is such a beautiful place, it’s a spiritual place where one can be found, only in the Master’s arms… Search awe and wanders of peace there… Where there use to be a bodily form it’s just only my foot steps in the life of following Christ because He’s my Master… Why did I die from self world the flesh wanting to know? Only the spirit knows, and I am that spirit, I’m feeling a sensation moving down on the inside of me, my soul telling me I’m dying… What! am I dying too my spirit asked? No my spirit wasn’t dying because my soul was clinging to it’s soulmate Jesus who is the lover of my soul, and wasn’t fixing to let anything happen to me ,only my body was dying from the things of this passing away world, it’s dying from the bitterness in my soul, it dying from a world of not enough, clinging to a world of more than enough hallelujah praise God.. It’s dying from bitterness of lack, poor, loneliness, broken and disgusted with myself to loving myself through the eyes of my Master Jesus, yes I was dying from self world and clinging to Him…..

Moving on with my story, yes it’s a true story the one I’ve experienced back in 2012 with no where to go yes I’m tired and oppressed, then I heard the spirit of Job. 21:25,26 kjv came in my spirit, and it reads, And another dieth in the bitterness of his soul, and never eateth with pleasure…(26) They shall lie down alike in the dust, and the worms shall cover them.. For me I’ve experience that verse, that day wasn’t just an ordinary day I was in a spiritual trance going through between the natural realm, and the spiritual realm my flesh was feeling strange, I was feeling the bitterness of this world in my soul; may I remind you the spirit of Jesus was with me…

This world was offering me something that wasn’t mine to have! Was it my flesh! therefore I can’t and I will not eat the sins of its flesh in pleasure, so I cried out to God from my soul, and told the world, you can have this old flesh, just give me Jesus, although I cried from the depths of my soul to the Lord, His spirit was already there with me, and He felt everything that I was going through.. At that time I was feeling the world’s grip nipping on the old man’s flesh… I was dying from my flesh, I was dying from this world into the newness of Life and becoming alive in my spirit… The more I was dying the more Jesus came alive in me… I realize every time the world trys to offer me something that is not mines to have the flesh go and try to get it… I can say a lot more, but for the sake of time I will have to cut it short…. At the end my spiritual transformation was completed now I was sure that I was saved and belonged to Jesus because I had His spirit in me…

A side note: we all go through something in this life doesn’t matter whatever it is, just hold on to Jesus and don’t let Him go because we can all learn something from each other your experience may not be like mines, but we must all go through something inorder to get to where God wants to take us, and that is, the Promise Land that is flowing with milk and honey hallelujah praise God… If you haven’t already made Jesus the Lord of your life please do so at this time… Peace and blessings to you in Jesus name amen 🙏

Published by My Devoted Heart

Who am I? I'm just a soul who has been born again and kissed by the breath of God's Salvation, who now wants to tell the world about Jesus.....

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